As you can see, this is my first blog everrrr.  I figure if I am going to annoy people over Facebook and Youtube, I might as well do so over a blog.  Plus, I didn't know how to make a blog without the help of Google Blogger before.  Anyway, my very first topic for my first everrrr blog is why I took comedy class in 2012.  I need to get this out because I've been asked by my instructor, Janice Bannister, the first class and after the showcase and I couldn't give a satisfactory answer (sorry for being distracted while on camera! I was nervous as heck!) so I want to make it up here.  

It's difficult to answer because I am always so directionless, but I will list out some possible reasons.  One is that I have graduated from SFU for 9 months at the time and I was in a rut(still am), just spinning in circles, doing the same darned things: having taken classes and hoping it would be something I like and end up being all the same, applying for jobs I know I won't get, bullshitting on resumes about how I am hardworking, organized, and laying all the buzzwords that interviewers see a thousand times over every day.  I needed to do something completely outside the box.  If I were an extrovert, I would have tried out librarian.  

There is also curiosity.  Many years ago, I saw on television about how people can take classes in comedy and the students seemed pretty intense, and the class, really technical.  Honestly, I went to my class expecting to be given a grade.  It's me wanting to see the behind the scenes of comedy, the boring tasks that need to be carried out before the fun begins.  I was almost disappointed when every class was fun.  But then, if it was what I expected, it would have been a university course. 

Then there is my obsession with the internet.  Like many basement dwellers out there, I couldn't help but get hooked onto commenting on Youtube.  If I could make money commenting, it would be my career.  But, I couldn't so I said to myself, if I am going to waste time trying to get thumbs up, I might as well do something productive like going onstage getting laughs and then getting thumbs up when posted on Youtube.  


Finally, the real and subconscious reason behind all of this while looking at my urge to check facebook and youtube every 12 seconds and making this blog, is that I am an attention whore.  I might be shy at times but I am still an attention whore.  I just try to get away as soon as I have the spotlight on me.  It all gets really ambivalent and it depresses me all the time.    I am not going to lie.  I loved it when the theatre rumbled with laughter when I hit the punchlines.  It is me being liked, being good at something, being original.  But, I also have doubts whether I could actually do this while being a boring non-spontaneous git in real life.  At the same time, I am not qualified for any jobs that doesn't require me to be interesting. 

In other words, I am still useless but I know why I did comedy, kind of.